more complains...sry

just learnt that someone i know broke off with her fiance. or rather her fiance sent her an sms to break off with her. so convenient with sms now right. takes less than a minute to call of a relationship. he refused her calls or messages, saying that if she continues to force him, he'll find a new gf to show her. that is so childish! and the only reason he gave was she was not his type. he told other people that he couldnt tolerate her attitude of always wanting her way. his sister said that it was marriage phobia. they have been together for almost two years and he has never really voiced out any unhappiness with her attitude. he bought her a ring and proposed. they viewed flats together and were due to rom in the coming months. they were still loving one week before he sent that dreadful message. all their colleagues know they were going to rom and kept asking the girl when is their big day. she works as a stewardess and going to every city has memories of their times together. she has grown to be so dependent on him and everywhere she goes just evokes memories of them together. in her past relationships, she has been the one to initiate the breakup. is this retribution for her?

but in any case, whether it is really the girl's attitude, the guy should at least explain the reason for breakup. then at least there is closure. she wouldnt know he's unhappy with her if he always gives in to her. he is so irresponsible to propose to the girl, give her false hope then break up for dunno what reason suddenly. so childish to threaten with things like finding another gf to spite her. somehow i feel that there must be some other reason that he cannot say.

learning this makes me feel life is so full of uncertainty and relationships are so fragile. communication is the most important thing but it isnt easy to achieve. as for people like me especially, who have difficulty expressing ourselves. i tend to keep things to myself to avoid conflict or talking about unpleasant things. its like you know the theory of what you should do but cant or dont know how to apply it.

hope that she would get over it soon and find her true happiness worthy of her love...

back from watching spiderman 3. its a great movie and the theatre was so packed! its funny, touching and full of action. had a very filling dinner at carl's junior too. thought that i wouldnt be able to finish but i did.
ok actually dont really feel like blogging. feeling irritated and not at peace for i dont know what reason. just dont want anyone to talk to me now. emailed dr khan like more than a week ago asking if my application is approved. he didnt reply at all. felt like he didnt want to take us due to the very lukewarm response we got from him. so i went to get work for the month of may. but sy emailed him yesterday and he replied her promptly today. i dont know why but it seems like he only replies her emails. seems so petty to be irritated by this but i just am. now that i've got a job then he tells sy he approves. i should be glad right. sy keep asking me to start soon. but i'm working till end of may mah. there's no way i can even go down part time. hope dr khan will allow me to start in june. not my fault to want to find work lor.
sigh...sorry for the complains. i did enjoy myself today. just dont know why came back with a bad mood. should be back to normal soon. until then...bu yao re wo...

holidays~ time to get back my regular eating style. always skip meals before my paper but eat all the junk food while studying. went outside for a simple dinner after my paper. and one hour later, it was supper time! it was the first time i went to the coffeeshop near the stadium. think the food there is better than the coffeeshop beside city harvest. ate till we were so full that we decided to walk back to school. saw this fat caterpillar which acted like a snake when provoked. so funny, haha...its upper half of the body just stood up to an S shape like a king cobra about to attack. finally ended the night with a mahjong session. finally luck is with me after so long. as jh said, each final night must be a memorable one.
moved out of hall on thursday. still remember i kept complaining about getting hall 8 last sem. now i feel it isnt so bad after all. my room is very convenient and i've gotten used to walking. though going up the slope every morning is still dreadful. my roommate has gone from a stranger to a friend whom i have shared many late night conversations with. hopefully i can get hall next sem. final year in school le.
yesterday went for ktv with my coursemates. alot of people didnt turn up but just as well anyway. sbs people can really sing! so impressed. especially bennie, always see him so quiet but he can sing all the xu ru yun and fish leong songs with ease.
going to watch spiderman 3! yay~
sry that i nv watch w u...

yay~ exams are over!!! quite disappointed with my last paper today. nmr so easy but they didnt tell us how is the structure like. didnt know we were supposed to memorize the amino acid structure for this exam, and thus probably lost alot of marks. my A is gone once again. but exams over! yay~
hope this will be a fun and fufilling holiday. hopefully can go for a short holiday somewhere. there's still no news of my internship application yet but i'll be working as an exam invigilator for the most of may. finally i'm not the one sitting there in the hall doing exam. hahaha...

i'm so full~ went to kim gary restaurant at vivocity for dinner. went to central at clarke quay at first but it was still quite empty. so disappointed. anyway, i ordered the pork chop baked rice set with cheese at kim gary's. the set also included a drink and a cup of soup. first time see soup served in a teacup. the baked rice was very nice, served in a dim sum bamboo 'long' instead of the normal western dish and it was cheesy enough. at first thought the rice was quite little but it turned out to be very filling! ordered the peanut butter thick toast with condensed milk to share with ny. it was a wrong decision to order the thick toast as it was also carbo and filling enough to be dinner by itself. i had always wanted to try it after seeing so many tempting pictures. but i was quite disappointed with it. i like the sweetness but the bread was not soft enough. especially the crust which wasnt crispy, making it difficult to cut through. overall its still a nice dinner.

*happy birthday~*

yay~ third paper over. this sem's papers were all quite ok. but today's hrm paper was crappy though. never crap so much in my exam. just wrote all the things i could come up with hoping it will be relevant. one question even ask us to come up with a business idea. if we got good ideas then we wouldnt be sitting there taking exam le right??
last saturday went to airport terminal one to study with hui. BK was surprisingly crowded with many secondary school students studying. so noisy lor. especialy the group of sec 4 students beside us. they even argue whether pythagras theorem need right hand triangle anot. cant believe it... anyway, the terminal 1 foodcourt is open after renovations! now it has more stalls, more tables and even more people. can eat my favourite hokkien mee le!

here's a logic question if you wanna take a break from studying and kill more brain cells. haha... question courtesy of jy...

John and David have a tuition teacher, Victor.Victor told John his birth month and told David his birth day. He listed his possible birth dates.

4th March, 5th March, 8th March
4th June, 7th June
1st September, 5th September
1st December, 2nd December, 8th December

John said, "I do not know, and so, neither does David"
David said, "I didn't know at first, but I do now"
John said, "Oh, I know now too"

What is the birthday of Victor?

answers anyone?

yay~ the first paper is over. had enough of memorizing drug names and side effects which didnt come out at all. i like pharmacology actually. its interesting to know the drugs that you might be taking and their purpose. but definitely not as an examinable subject! i've never been good at memory and i think for the first time, i had an anxiety attack before the paper. then was like thinking what anxiolytics are there... dont think i can do well but first paper down, 4 more to go!

i was looking forward to cutting my hair. like the feeling of having a fresh cut. but now i regretted it. the new hairstyle totally sucks! now i wake up with messy hair every morning. cant step out of the room without having to try to tame it down first. its much too layered for my frizzy hair, though i would have liked it in the past. now i cant wait for my hair to grow back. sigh...
sort of finished my assignment and report. sick of changing and plotting graphs over again. my friend just told me there're mistakes but couldnt care less now. the lecturer can deduct my marks cos i'm not going to touch it again! one of the lecturers was finally nice enough not to give us a report to do. its stupid really to ask us to do it one week before exams. think we're good at complaining. haha... my studying speed is so slow... where's my motivation?? doesnt seem like exam is in 6 days time. out of time!

a few weeks ago, a bird came to build its nest in the branches of a potted plant outside my home. the bird was brown with black and white areas around its eyes and has a long tail. this weekend, i went home to find that its two eggs have hatched and its babies have grown to furry cute birds! think they would have flown away by the time i go home next week.

my structural bio leacturer is so kind. he forgot to give us any assignment or test for our 30% CA component. so now, 3 weeks before our exam, he announces that he will post a journal paper for us to read and do a 2 page report. how nice of him. why sbs always make us do stupid things like this before exams??
i got a reply from the oncology research institute for my request of internship. got it through jh's contacts actually. most likely i should be able to work there for the holidays. wasnt really keen on working in the lab for the whole 3 months but sort of under peer pressure to gain experience and find a lab for fyp. this is my last 3 months hols and as one of my friends say, we should take this opportunity to make full use of the hols and do what we like. there will be plenty of chances to work after graduation. seems so close to our graduation and i feel so lost. but since i cant take ge, i'll work. felt like i wasted alot of my hols last time. hopefully can learn more this 3 months. so many people are going overseas, for hols or for studies. dont really have the courage to go overseas for studies. but i like to go overseas!

had a relaxing day today watching the movie mr bean's holiday. i always like watching comedies cos it feels good to laugh. especially after today's lab session where i didnt understand anything at all. feel so demoralised. mr bean is something that i've watched since young. so even if its a little exaggerating, i'll still watch it.but i guess its exaggerated cos he has to make people laugh without talking. this movie shows him going to france and the funny things that happen along the way, making him take a long detour and meeting interesting people. alot of the conversation is in french, so its a good chance to revise my french. haha...havent used it since i finished the module. the movie also showed many scenes of the french city and countryside. makes me wanna go there! both wen and my mum will be going there soon. when's my turn??

when i bathe, i cant do without hot water, unless its an extremely hot day or after a vigourous exercise. thus it has been a torture when i have to bathe with ice cold water for three days in a row. in addition to my flu, i'd end up shivering in the shower and feeling cold the whole night. my roomie says maybe this is considered yi du gong du (counter poison with poison)? stubborn as i am, i didnt want to see the doctor. but i guess i'm recovering already. sleep really works in allowing your body to recover. i wanna sleep more~ but there's a hrm test tomorrow... exams are in about a month but my work is just beginning

my friend was envious that i was sick as she rarely gets sick. she says she likes the feeling of people showing concern for her when she's sick. thanks to the people who showed concern and did things for me. but i still dont like getting sick!

hall application has opened. which hall should i choose? want to stay in the new halls but dont think i'll be successful. should be applying with yu but due to our point differences, we'll most probably be split apart. dont want to stay with a stranger in my last year

feeling quite moody these few days. dont know the reason too. now having a sore throat. must be the fluctuating weather resulting in many people getting sick. so many things undone but dont feel like doing. then got to know today that there wont be jap3 offered this special sem. hai..i was so looking forward to taking it with yanfen. though i already passed my jlpt and cleared my electives, i still want to take it. now can only take it during my fyp semester if i want.

Impresario 07' finals were held at the Rock audi last night. though i was in the programming subcommitee, i didnt do much till the start of rehearsals. didnt get to know many new people too. my main commitee leader was the stage manager, which means all of us were stuck backstage too. didnt get to see a single thing of the whole performance. but at least we got to interact within ourselves and the contestants. so overall, i had fun.
sy and i were in charge of the vocal group finalists. it was like 2 people taking care of 19 small kids. we had to keep track of their whereabouts at all times and also to ensure that they are not too noisy or peep out at the audi. nearly freaked out when one of the contestants went to dhoby ghaut without telling me. in addition we try to help them whenever we can, like refilling their bottles! and thus they all call us 'nai ma', which means nanny. the vocal group finalists were a really fun bunch, so hyperactive and always singing and joking together. it became entertainment to me in the boring backstage. and they had really good voices! really like to hear them sing. my personal favourite was felicia and ahmad's 'ni zui zhen gui'. ahmad's chinese is so good! all of us didnt expect erick and bernard to win. their voices were good too and they could harmonize well. but i felt that the song wasnt really their own style. they sang better songs backstage.
angela zhang was the guest artiste and initially, the people backstage were all eager to see her. but she came with a really black face and was quickly escorted into the vip room. after that her assistant complained that angela zhang will get angry if people kept peeping in and asked for paper to cover the glass pane. i know she was probably tired or something but shouldnt she be used to being seen in public? though pitiful for the loss of privacy, that should be expected when you're famous. and she had to leave within half hour of arriving. after that we had to clear the corridors whenever she has to walk by. can see her practically dragging her feet.
well, i enjoyed myself with the contestants and subcommitee. hope can get the cd of the performance soon!

i read this from my cousin's blog and found it interesting. some kids were asked what they think love is and their answers were very cute.
read the later half of the entry on 24th feb. the font is very small though..

http://espada11.blogspot.com/

love is...the little things that you do for him/her.
love is...just being together.

new year, a time to gather with relatives and friends, stuffing yourself silly with goodies and playing blackjack or mahjong!! ate my reunion dinner at my aunt's house for the first time this year. we usually have it alone at home after we stopped going to my grandma's house a few years ago. i like gatherings with more people though i'm not very sociable. i've got very entertaining relatives though. haha...
sunday was spent at my grandfather's place. this year more of my relatives are around so it was more re nao. at night, my aunt and cousin decided to come to my house to play mahjong overnight. my uncle was staying for a few days too. we didnt have a proper mahjong table so we used the round balcony table instead. but it was too small and we ended up creating more noise as the tiles kept dropping on the floor. cannot 'swim' properly. one of the tiles even 'commited suicide' and jumped off the balcony from the 8th floor! but it was unharmed with only a few scratches. so amazing... but me and ny really didnt have mahjong luck. ended up losing to all 3 people. hai..
today's the last day of the new year hols. back to 7 hour lectures on wednesday. *sobz*. anyway the bbq last thursday was a success. had a turnout of 30 people plus a very cute boy. haha.hopefully can get the photos soon.

happy new year and enjoy your hols!

decided to post something if not wen and cher hao are going to complain again. haha...
celebrated valentine's day for the first time as a couple this year. actually we sort of celebrated twice. ate at ding tai fung and crystal jade. conclusion? ding tai fung's xiao long bao is much nicer! thanks for everything~enjoyed myself.
what is the significance of valentine's day to you? a day for girls to receive flowers and get pampared by their boyfriends with gifts and dinners? i saw guy friends preparing dinner and flowers etc to impress the girl they like. that was really sweet. but actually guys dont really have to spend alot of money to impress girls. its the sincerity that's important.
reminds me of the times in jc where we celebrated it as friendship day. alot of the girls will be giving out little notes and chocolates to all their friends. it came as a culture shock for me as i came from a mixed secondary school and we dont usually celebrate this way.
really looking forward to the bbq dinner with my coursemates tonight. it was supposed to be a steamboat for pre-new year celebration but the guest list just kept growing and we decided to have a post valentine's day celebration as well. actually everyone was supposed to bring someone of the opposite sex to add in the fun but that idea kinda failed. haha... still looking forward to it. lalala~

hope you all had a happy valentine's day and happy chinese new year in advance!

feeling kind of sad to hear that my estate is going on en-bloc. they just achieved 80% agreement recently. while many residents were happy to agree because of the high price their flat would fetch, we are now having a headache. where to move to?? now the residents realised that actually our estate is very good. though a little inconvenient to public transport, i've gotten used to walking to the central area. situated between two mrt stations, its quite convenient actually. i like my house being spacious and windy. and most of all, i'm a person who doesnt like changes. having stayed here since i was five, many of my friends also live nearby. and i really like tampines alot. in any case, i wouldnt want to move to the west.

i was quite shocked to hear about the car accident of the taiwan actress during the weekend. she was so young and pretty but ended up with a tragic death. how unpredictable and unfair life can be...
watched 'happy birthday' and found it quite a nice show. the ending was a little touching and sad. in the show, the main female character didnt want to maintain a bf/gf relationship with a guy she liked for fear of losing him. thus, they were always in an ambiguous state. she thinks that a bf/gf relationship is not permanant. only good friends can be forever. but its such a waste for two people who like each other not to be together. must always treasure our relationships with the people dear to us for we wont know what may happen next. but i guess i can sort of understand her thinking. maybe that's why some people say its difficult for very good friends to become a couple...