This is not a good day. ok, maybe its not that bad but i still dont feel good. first of all, my results are out. i had hoped that i can get all Bs but after the papers i lowered it down to C for some subjects. then my genetics came out with a D. a big fat D. now i got no As at all in my 1st year, with the exception of jap that is. but having A for jap is no use cos the results arn't counted for it. i'm upset cos i i studied hard for e genetics paper and i knew i could do it. if only i had voiced up to ask the lecturer what the questions meant. i knew he talked to another student for 5 mins about the question. i was straining to hear him but i still didnt dare ask. i have never been so conscious about my grades till i got to uni. maybe cos no matter how badly i did last time, i know i'll do ok in the end. and i never ranked that low among my peers before. in uni now, its different. i'm surrounded by all these smart people. some who even complain that they didnt get enough As to get into director's list. i did the worst among my friends. sigh... kk,i know. enough ranting. gotta buck up next sem.
secondly, mum said last night that some of my relatives and coousins will be driving up to Kota Tinggi(is this how u spell?) this mon. gonna go to the waterfall there and spend the afternoon. but cos they are meeting at 6am, my dad said no way is he giving up his sleep and it'll be tiring for him to drive up. and continued that he is old and not as energetic as before. dont get me wrong, i'm not blaming my dad. i know its tiring for the driver and 6am is damn early. but i'm just disappointed. i badly wanna get out and go on holiday. no matter how short. and i wanna see the waterfall. haiz...this is the 2nd chance we missed this year. first was club med. i wanna go there too~
third... i'm feeling kinda cooped up. not that i dont go out but mostly i've just been looking for jobs. its getting on my nerves. why is it so hard to get a job?? first AP Comm calls me and gives me hope. then they tell me that they are updating their database. why update when they dont have available jobs? then last mon, recruit express called with a job offer. i accepted and waited for confirmation. its been % days and still no calls. sigh...can give up already