wow, its been almost a month since i updated. the past month have been somewhat busy and chaotic rushing to complete my thesis. i've been going through cycles of being depressed on some days when i get my results and alright on others. though i went to lab 6 days a week, i think i had it better than many others who had to stay late everyday. wasnt really satisfied with my work but finally, its all over. almost anyway. i learnt alot from this lab experience, technically and personally about the images people portray in front of different people. the people in the lab are generally good, if you dont look too deep or think too much. its expected in any workplace i guess. but i still cant get used to it. now that the thesis is complete, i'm left with the poster day before my 4 years of studies in university ends. it feels kind of surreal that time passed so fast. i'm going to miss school. now the big question is What do I want to do in future?? i really dont know. dr khan has offered to help me find a scholarship should i wish to continue studying. i was hoping to start working in his lab first but he is not employing any more people. its useless to continue studying unless i really want to work in research right? i'm not sure thats what i want to do in the long term though i'm relatively comfortable with it now. i dont want to waste time and money. or should i study something else like business part time? if i find a job, should i find one in the industry or out?? so many questions which probably i can answer. but i dont have any answers. i dont know what i want and i never will. what should i do??