feel so restless lately. havent gone out to relax with my frens since dunno when. the outing with my japanese classmates keep getting postponed cos of our damned assignments. one after another. haiz... was really looking forward to meeting them. didnt even go out during the last hols except to nus to study with shiwen and meizhen. pathetic huh. but there's really nice to study.
started playing with maple story during the hols. was attracted by its cute characters so i tried to play my first rpg. its not very exciting actually, except when you get cool stuff or level up. i guess that's why people are addicted to gaming. think i'll lose interest after awhile though. and i only told one person i was playing and now all the guys know i'm playing. hai...
got back my french test last week. i got a 17/20! really surprised. thought i'll do badly for the compo and questions sections. maybe i can get an overall good grade afterall. hee...
went to swensens to celebrate my mum's birthday. really coincidence cos i saw willie with his family having dinner too. then jy came to meet wy, hk and yy. havent seen the guys in a long time so it was great to catch up abit. seems like they are planning a xmas party.

who can calm my restless soul?

whew, havent blogged in a long time. yr 2 sch life has been pretty busy so far. so much more to study. hate advanced cell bio. yucks... stupid lecturer gave us a scientific journal to read and answer questions. finally handed in the assignment. think i didnt do very well for yesterday's french test too. cant remember french as well as i did for japanese.
looking foward to holidays this week~

i attended my great grandmother's funeral yesterday. she passed away last wednesday, at the age of 96. its quite amazing to see the whole extended family have dinner together. though i think many people didnt come. i saw relatives i've never seen before. my grandma is the only child alive. but the families of her other 3 brothers came too. my nephew would be the 5th generation.
we went through elaborate rituals, with the taoist priests chanting prayers. they sang in a hokkien dialect incomprehensible to me. i was quite amazed by the 'musicians'. one could beat the drum, sound the gong and sing at the same time. i didnt know my greatgrandma well but as the females went in to kneel down, i saw my grandma cry and tears came to my eyes too.
but funerals seem to have become more commercialised. we even had the choice of what prayer package we want. of cos, more prayers will be more expensive. and its quite sad that the whole family only comes together in occasions like this.

goodbye greatgrandma...

changed my blogskin more than 1 week ago but feel like changing it again. hee... dont like the harry potter music. skipped my bs203 tutorial today. so stupid to go for 1 hour lesson just to see the tutor write answers on the board.
anyway, i had a great time at sentosa on sunday. went with the s09 classmates. expected more girls to go though. end up me,shiwen and joy were the only girls. i thought i wouldnt enjoy myself cos i'm not close to the guys. we paid $5 each to rent the volleyball and facilities at siloso beach. i totally sucked at playing volleyball. couldnt even serve over the net. hai... but after that we went kayaking. woohoo~ damn fun. i've been waiting a long time for this. i paired up with dennis. realised all of them are quite strong kayakers. after all dennis and jerome was from dragonboat team. we raced with damian and minsiang's boat and came in second. at least not last. haha...i changed kayak and rowed with weixiong for awhile. the waves were quite strong and were pushing us to shore. then when our boat became paraqllel to the waves, we capsized. lol... hope to go kayaking again. 5 hours in the sun and i'm red like a lobster. pain~

first week of school is ending. its been quite a slack week. went to mabel's house for the naruto marathon and steamboat dinner with some of the cns people. she's living alone in the two storey house. a bit creepy actually, especially when we told ghost stories after dinner. i couldnt sleep myself.
very sad that this semester couldnt get jap2 for my ge. really wanted to continue taking before i forget everything. i got marketing instead. though i was interested, now seems abit heavy to take with my core. it'll be good to take but i'm kinda reluctant now. yesterday, i went for 8 hours of lessons. reached home at 9pm. that would be the time i'll reach home if i got my jap. i crashed lihui's french class in the afternoon and junjie's jap class in the evening. french class was interesting and the teacher was good. its was in the same class as my jap last sem. sat back in the same seat too. but french pronounciations are all so difficult and confusing. my interest was not deep enough. good experience though. jap class was very fast paced. i forgot some things already and sometimes couldnt keep up with the over zealous class. i preferred suzuki sensei and my previous class. this teacher was lively but there seems to be something missing. i miss my class...in any case, both french and jap have no more vacancies. sigh...

tomorrow is the start of a new semester le. holidays have come to an end. hope i can do better this semester. slacked for 3 months le, hope my mind havent become rusty. now printing lecture notes. its so fustrating. argh...when will i learn not to try to print at home. this printer always give me problems. like printing one page onto 3 pages. sigh...13 more pages to go...
spent my last day of holidays with my family. we tried a bit of archery just now. its quite fun but very tiring on the left arm. not enough strength. haha... my first shot flew off on the floor. but i managed to hit the target later.
yesterday, i met up with meizhen and shiwen. bought my first shirt during the hols. couldnt resist the urge. haha... and i highlighted my hair. but seems like its not obvious enough. the actual colour looked much darker than what the hairdresser showed me. anyway, still prefer myself with shorter hair.

school's starting next week, so i'm gonna enjoy myself first. though i've been doing that for the past 3 months. i forgot my ntu password! how blur can i be. now i've to go to the IT centre for the second time this year to reset it. sigh...cant even check my timetable now.
anyway, met up with some of the cns people for lunch yesterday. jinhan's treat. haha... we went to this cafe in cineleisure. think its called friends. replaced the previous lips cafe. the food was quite good. they were having the student promo, from 2 to 6pm. damn cheap. for $5.90, you get to choose a main course and also free flow of soup. drinks are an additional 60 cents. really good bargain considering the original price of the main course alone range from $7.90 to $11.90. students can consider going. after lunch, i played pool for the first time. haha... its not as easy as i thought it would be. not very fun to play. maybe my skills too lousy. the only balls i can hit in is the white one. hwai quan almost gave up teaching me. now looking forward to our naruto screening~

went to marina twice in 3 days. first was sat's outing with the jap class people. didnt expect it'll only be the 5 of us. so shelved our plans for steamboat and went to sakae instead. ate alot there, including something gross. they took a plate of snails and persuaded me to try too. the thought of eating it was really gross but i think i put too much wasabi, i couldnt really taste the snail. still, one is enough. *bleah* but i had alot of fun that day. we went to esplanade after dinner and started a phototaking frenzy. the main exhibit is always really good for taking photos.

yesterday,went to marina again to celebrate hui's bdae with the gals. now all the poly people graduate. they are working or planning to study. feels like we've all grown up. haha...den went with hui to visit wanyu at work. she and zhiwei so eng there. should i help out during national day too?
p.s.can someone teach me how to post the photos nicely?

just came back from cns camp last evening. so tired, only slept 3 hrs a day. but i really enjoyed myself. got to know all these nice people through this camp. i was supposed to be under logistics, but somehow i became helping the sports programmers more. didnt know how to help logistics. dont even know how to set up the pa system. and there were already 4 guys. they wont let us girls carry the heavy things. first day we had the amazing race at school. not really fun being station master. i was there to keep jiafang company. she's one hyper girl with her infectious laughter. spent the time crapping while waiting for the teams. spent the night at little bodhi temple. the temple was kinda like chalet, air-con super cold. on the second day, 10 of us in the advance party went to changi chalet in the logistics minivan. we really packed the van with equipment and there's hardly space for 7 people in the back. me and lihui had to lie on the things near the back door. the aloha chalets were so big and old with 4 or 5 bedrooms. there was one room with a small nursary at the back. it had a broken cot in it. quite creepy actually. it was really fun setting up the haunted house together. but we all found it quite funny during the trial. lol...i was one of the scarers hiding under the bed. took a whole 3 hrs for all the freshies to finish. so damn tired being a ghost. but it took away any fear i had of the house. but we had to attend buddhist talks everyday. all of us were so tired, cant help nodding off. think i actually slept during 1 meditation session. one nus lecturer was quite inspiring though. learnt alot. jinhan, our logistics leader was quite protective of us subcommers. probably made a few people unhappy. but i wanna say i think they all did a great job and i really like all the people there. had a great time!

to my dear hui, wish u an early happy birthday! hope you can find a bf soon so u can be sure no there's someone to celebrate ur bdae !! be happy alwayz~

whew...the week is finally over. last weekend, i went more another two days of trial camp. running the amazing race again is not fun. this time, i went with a couple of seniors. the games were more or less the same and i already knew all the answers to the clues. the day at changi wasnt so bad. think the night walk will be quite exciting with an ending climax at the 'haunted house'.
met hui,gary,jy and iz for dinner at suntec fish n co after the trial camp. can we not go there again? haha... then gary had on his army specs and could see that he had tried to style his hair abit. but his specs still made him look somewhat nerdy. i enjoyed myself at dinner but was abit distracted. my mum had called to say they were sending my bro to hospital cos he felt dizzy and fell, hitting his head on the floor. so it doesnt seem right that i should be enjoying myself. was quite worried cos head injury is quite serious. plus he also vomitted.
but he's ok now. discharged after 4 nights stay. thanks to u all for your concern. one thing i'll like to say is that changi hospital is very inefficient. they doctors are mostly young, many under training. some not even confident of taking blood samples. they didnt explain my brother's condition or what they were doing. they only came once a day. then said that maybe my brother was too tall. crap. it was my dentist who explained to me. how ironic. the radiologists took two days to come up with the x-ray report. the result? they were still not sure if the line shown in the x-ray is a crack or a blood vessel. so they only sent him for a brain scan after that. i think its pretty fustrating for patients. alot of people were complaining in the ward. wonder if other hospitals are like that. so dear frens, please take care of yourselves.
that aside, i went to watch war of the worlds today(finally!). it was really great and exciting. its like a computer game. the aliens zapping all the humans with their light beams. but i didnt really catch the ending. how come the aliens all suddenly collaspe? did they catch bird flu or something? overall its a nice movie so go watch if you havent.
looking forward to camp tml~

last sat i went for the bbq that sharon organised at east coast. we had actually invited alot of people but most of them couldnt make it at the last minute. so we had a record breaking of...5 people! luckily we didnt buy too much food. sharon was very well prepared. she brought everything from cutlery to knife and even a marker to write our names on the cup. i had fun bbqing the chicken fillet and marshmellows. the best that i have ever bbqed. mei mei marinated the fillets with mc donald's chilli and pepper. looked like something out of seoul garden. not a bad creation. lol...the sky was filled with stars that night. it was really nice and nan de. i jus love stars. then mei mei said our planned trip to sentosa with our jap classmates have to be cancelled. so disappointed... wanna go sentosa. oh well

second thing, i finally plucked out 2 of my wisdom teeth yesterday~ 2 down, 2 more to go. the pain was bearable actually but my body was tensed throughout the 1 hour. though numbed from pain, i was not numbed from all feelings. i could still feel the dentist drilling and cutting the tooth into half before forcibly pulling it out. i used to be very afraid of going to the dentist and i'll cry and sulk everytime. so i thought that i'll never have to pull out another tooth after my last milk tooth dropped. now got wisdom teeth. why call them wisdom teeth when they are useless anyway. now my left cheek is swollen and according to colin, i'm probably like a half chipmunk. have to miss out on the movie outing tonight. i wanna watch initial D and war of the worlds!! anyone wanna watch with me?

this week has been quite busy. the painters came for three days to paint our whole house. now my house has become so colourful. hee...but i think its quite nice. the living room and other common areas are painted lilac. my room sunshine yellow. my brother's room bright orange and my parents' room sky blue. i keep changing colours for my room but decided on the yellow in the end. i like my room. : )
this morning i went to the dentist and missed out on ying's invitation to watch batman. but at least this week can meet shiwen. take out ur braces even more pretty le wor. then the bad news is i've got to take out all my wisdom teeth before they push my other teeth. how?? i damn scared... haiz...*prays there'll be no pain* i'll need all the courage i can get

Trial Camp
It has been a busy week. think i went out almost everyday. watched star wars on fri with my mum and bro. didnt think it was so great. and padme never seems to age from episode one. weird...can father anakin's children somemore. met up with ying and xiuhui on sat too. went shopping at orchard. suppose to meet the guys too but they so lazy dont wanna go to town. hai...wait till they go army, wanna go out also cannot. going out with the gals so much easier.
went to the ntu buddhist society trial camp yesterday. just joined the logistics sub commitee. i was quite skeptical at first, whether it will be some religious camp with buddhist classes. but it turned out alright. i had fun. we played some ice breaker games. the people were nice. especially since my group consisted mainly of non-buddhists too. the morning was filled with introduction to buddhism and we were taught the different ways of prostrating, puja chanting and watched some video. not what i'll find interesting so i sat out on the video. the people there were mostly seniors though, going on to final year. so when we played the amazing race, they asked me to guess the clues and places. cos i was the closest to being a freshie. we went around the whole ntu. tiring k, all the stairs and the hot sun. woke up at 5.30 to go sch. havent got up so early before. quite surprised that the mrt got quite alot of people too. where are they going so early on a sunday morning?? overall, the day was fun. will look forward to the real camp. just too bad they scrapped going to sentosa this year

Wild Wild Wet~
i had a great time at wild wild wet yesterday! the place was kind of expensive considering there were so little rides. but the water was so inviting in the hot weather. there were not many rides so we went on them over and over again. we went on the ulah lah(float ride for 6 pple) so many times until the station master got tired of us. we sat till we finally got a perfect picture for the camera. lol... the samsung ride was most exciting but it wasnt so scary after the first time. on the first time, two of us had difficulty sitting properly on the float, creating much laughter. it looks kind of obscene if you are standing at the back. seeing 2 people sitting facing each other trying to push themselves up on the float with their legs apart. haha... after that we lazed around in the jacuzzi. shiok~ singapore should build a bigger water theme park in the integrated resort next time

Guitar Concert
went to TPJC guitar concert last friday. so glad i went. yixi,thanks for the treat. surprised to see chantel and jennifer there too. the concert was so good, especially the ensemble. they won gold at syf this year. they had a decent instructor. ours looked liked some street musician. and they had uniforms. that made them look alot better. but most of all, their skills surpass ours by so much more. they played songs like First Love and She Will Be Loved. It was really great. and i got to meet up with the guitar people after so long. especially my cousin. haha...people who didnt know wont be able to tell that we're cousins. we went to have prata after that. the food wasnt that delicious but i had a great time anyway.

This is not a good day. ok, maybe its not that bad but i still dont feel good. first of all, my results are out. i had hoped that i can get all Bs but after the papers i lowered it down to C for some subjects. then my genetics came out with a D. a big fat D. now i got no As at all in my 1st year, with the exception of jap that is. but having A for jap is no use cos the results arn't counted for it. i'm upset cos i i studied hard for e genetics paper and i knew i could do it. if only i had voiced up to ask the lecturer what the questions meant. i knew he talked to another student for 5 mins about the question. i was straining to hear him but i still didnt dare ask. i have never been so conscious about my grades till i got to uni. maybe cos no matter how badly i did last time, i know i'll do ok in the end. and i never ranked that low among my peers before. in uni now, its different. i'm surrounded by all these smart people. some who even complain that they didnt get enough As to get into director's list. i did the worst among my friends. sigh... kk,i know. enough ranting. gotta buck up next sem.
secondly, mum said last night that some of my relatives and coousins will be driving up to Kota Tinggi(is this how u spell?) this mon. gonna go to the waterfall there and spend the afternoon. but cos they are meeting at 6am, my dad said no way is he giving up his sleep and it'll be tiring for him to drive up. and continued that he is old and not as energetic as before. dont get me wrong, i'm not blaming my dad. i know its tiring for the driver and 6am is damn early. but i'm just disappointed. i badly wanna get out and go on holiday. no matter how short. and i wanna see the waterfall. haiz...this is the 2nd chance we missed this year. first was club med. i wanna go there too~
third... i'm feeling kinda cooped up. not that i dont go out but mostly i've just been looking for jobs. its getting on my nerves. why is it so hard to get a job?? first AP Comm calls me and gives me hope. then they tell me that they are updating their database. why update when they dont have available jobs? then last mon, recruit express called with a job offer. i accepted and waited for confirmation. its been % days and still no calls. sigh...can give up already

Swensen's
Met up with the jap class people yesterday evening after yet another disappointing day of job searching with meizhen. Felt like i wasted the whole afternoon. The dinner was something to look forward to. But only 6 people came today. Junhui didnt join us due to miscommunication on me and meimei's part. We were all waiting for him and luckily, we saw him at the mrt station with his friends! He had no idea we were meeting. So coincidental! We gave kairong his b'dae present. Picked out a cream coloured long sleeved shirt. Lucky never buy the purple one. Haha... Then went Swensen's for dinner.Sat there talking and taking pics for like 2 hrs plus until the waiter asked if we want to order some more food. Went to esplanade after that. Too bad the rooftop was closed. There was actually a stretch selling hawker food at the ground level. Can check it out sometime. We sat by the river and talked somemore. Found out that June Kit is actually a very romantic guy and very sweet to his gf. The things he did for her are like wow. He actually made a snow globe with a rose inside for her. So sweet~ His views on certain issues are also different from some guys. Though he claims its his caveman thinking, it has impressed us gals. Zhen ren bu lou xiang!
Then in the front hall, we saw a very nice artwork. There were many strings of transparent acrylic puzzle pieces hanging from the ceiling. And there were green spotlights around, giving it a green glow. Hopefully i can post some photos soon.
And looking forward to our next meeting~

Bowling again
went to bowl again with meizhen. spent alot of money yesterday. and i did a super embarrassing thing. totally throw all my face. luckily we were at the end of the alley and the guy next to us helped me so i didnt have to inform the personnel. so paiseh! after bowling, we went to suntec for lunch and had the ice cream waffle at gelere. really splurge today.
if u all know any openings for temp jobs pls tell me...i need a job~

Bored~
I'm bored to tears at home...so many people working, nobody free to meet up. i need a job. haiz... if only i could take jap this sem. yun and ling, when can we meet up? havent seen ling in ages~

finally did some exercise yesterday. played badminton at safra with shiwen and meizhen. so shiok, we didnt even have to pay. haha... then went up to bowl. so happy~i finally got a decent score. my score was always under 50 last time. now can hit 100. got a strike and some spares too. shiwen was the best, can get strike while throwing the ball and talking on the phone at the same time. next time we go play again k. we went to TM for lunch. TM is really the place to meet people. i saw so many familiar faces, even jiang jing(my jc form teacher). lol...lucky he nv see us. we were getting a manicure done. i never thought i will go do a manicure. i quite like my nails. chose a shiny pearl pinkish colour. and the person drew red flowers on my thumb. but its like so not me. i'm not used to it. and i keep thinking that i'm bleeding whenever i glance at my hands. anyway, i enjoyed myself yesterday.